the following was written a week a 2 before today (07.02.03 aka February 7th, 2003). It started off as a continuation of what I had written about my cat kicking my sisters' hampster's ass, and it developed into me being pissed off at my parents for some stuff that happened when I was 7 and 8, I think my mom kicking me off the computer prompted this. After that I just flowed into what was on my mind.

Anger can be productive, but of the stepping stones to a solution it is on the side
It should never be a finish, avoid it with any method of stride
Anger can be a beginning, but it should never be the end
But calmness has become last on the list and anger is a trend
With us in your presence you preceeded to fight
The images wouldn't leave my head it kept me up all night
What were you fighting for? we obviously weren't your goal
I can see the other side because in your plan there's a hole
If I wasn't #1 then you should have put me up for adoption
But you can't, ypu're white, so that's not and option
With your friends adoption is not cool
So you had to use me as your very own social tool
For my custody you went to court to battle for the right
And made an agreement that neither could take me by flight
You both remarried and jealosy reared his ugly head
Both sides secretly wishing that the other was dead
Of this shit up I am fed
I sometimes want to move out and find my own bed
I got my license so I am partially free
But still I got no job so I got no money
Over my eyes wants of the present pull the wool
I want to go out and work, but that will screw up my school
I got to stay on tha path
Got to stick to my science and my math
I got to stay focused so I can be a rich engineer
So that financial troubles won't ever be my fear
I got to do good so that I will have great wealth
So I can buy the things I want and stay in good health
I want my civic to be turboed and be fast
So the worries of today will stay the worries of the past.